Well, here we are. 2010. I never thought I would be back to where I was in 1999, but I'm getting close and if I don't do something now, I never will.
Back in 1999 I decided to join WW. It was great. I lost 60 pounds in 8 months. I would have kept going, but for reasons I won't go into, I didn't.
Over the years, I lost another 20 and managed to maintain that, until I met my now husband. I have ballooned and am so upset with myself that I need to get serious again. 2010 has to be all about me. My oldest son is 19, my youngest is 14, and I need to still set better examples for them. Thank GOD my husband is supportive. I still won't explain things to him, as I tend to keep a lot of things bottled up, so it's hard for him to fully comprehend where I am coming from. But, like I said, he is supportive and that will help. He said he is proud of me today, for getting back on the WW program. I don't want him to be proud. Not yet. He can be excited, but not proud. That will come later.
Losing weight is the hardest thing next to quitting smoking I can think of. You don't need alcohol to live. You don't need drugs to live. You DO need food. I'm not saying alcoholics and drug addicts are better off than I am. No, not saying that at all. I'm saying in order to live, we need food. I just have to make better choices about the foods I put in my mouth. THAT is the hard part. It's not cakes, chips, candybars that is killing me. It's the SUGAR! I'm an addict. Or so I think. I can go without chocolate, and I think that's HUGE in most women's lives, but I like candy. The hard things that not only rot my teeth, but BREAK my teeth. lol
So for me, once again, I'm re-learning how to eat to provide fuel to my body, so that I can live to hold my great-grandbabies. Not just eat because I'm bored, upset, sad, depressed, happy, excited, or any other emotion I can come up with. I don't have a choice, I HAVE to do this.
Hopefully this blog will help inspire me. Once I can figure out how to post pictures, I will. It's disgusting, but I'll do it to help motivate me to be where I was 5 years ago, and go beyond. I have SO many cute clothes that are just in a tote in my closet taking up space. I want to get rid of my "Fat-Fat" clothes, and just get back to my "Fat" clothes, so I can move on to my think clothes! WOOHOO GO ME!